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Shut That Baby Up?

Imani M. Watson

Mommy thoughts: “It’s pathological to restrict the natural human characteristics of a child” (ex. play, having friends, crying, etc.)

The Break: We all hate being in small spaces with strangers & a screaming baby is added to that equation, right? … Wrong! Moments like this actually intrigue me because I love watching and analyzing how the parent(s) respond. How they’re able to calm the baby, or not, with reaction.

Already annoyed sitting at the gate, a baby waiting at the same gate begins screaming. After missing a flight earlier in the day I thought, “wow…and now this.” Almost instantly catching myself and realizing that I was putting my negative feelings off on a child doing nothing, but being a child. The feeling of annoyance came from thinking I’ll have to sit through a flight with an unhappy baby, meaning there would be no peace or quiet. To my ignorant surprise, after the first 10 minutes of flight, I never heard baby again.

After boarding and getting comfortable in my seat, the baby started screaming & I just so happened to be in the row directly in front of them. It was almost like I felt the energy of others on the plane, because I could tell there were many uneasy adults thinking the same thing I had thought before hand. Not only was it felt by me, but I believe the mommy of baby was also able to feel it. Her rocking, shaking, and patting became more aggressive followed by grunts and “What do you need?!” Questions to a baby small enough not to comprehend anything more complex than “hi” & “bye.” I continued to listen as she became more frustrated and I could tell that her worry came directly from how her child made others feel versus what it was that her child needed. She continued saying things like “oh my god” as if a baby being annoyed on public transportation, surrounded by 100s of strangers, is abnormal.

I mean really, think about it, when we find ourselves in uncomfortable situations we are more than likely to voice this. When you’re upset, someone aggressively trying to calm or soothe you isn’t likely to work. Instead you’re trying to figure out how they could be genuinely concerned if they’re mad while “helping” you. An infant’s strongest way of communication aside from nonverbal, is crying. So responding to it with annoyance and anger, believe it or not, is already teaching them that their needs are too much to be met. Thinking of this, I started to ask the universe that both her and baby were covered in calmness. At this point not because I didn’t want to hear a crying baby, but moreso because I hated to witness her frustration rubbing off on baby and her not realizing that she was only making the crying worst. I asked the universe to release them from the cycle of baby being in need, mommy not understanding need, and making baby even more upset by transferring her energy. I wouldn’t call it magic, but as stated, I never heard the baby again after the initial 10 minutes of flight.

Now in no way is this to fault mommy or judge her for how she responded. I share this story in hopes that it will serve as a reminder to all mommies that as frustrating as this journey may get for us, and it will, we have to remember that when we freak out, children freak out. It’s also to remind us that regardless of our cultural belief that kids “know what they’re doing” or wait for the right time to “show out,” they are only practicing their natural ways of communication. Believe it or not, it starts this early! When your child begins having an episode in public, it’s important that you ignore other energies in the room, especially being that they’re unknown to you. Regardless of age, remember that your response is to meet the child’s need, not ensure that everyone else in the room is comfortable and at ease.

Here are a few ways to remind yourself in those moments that we lose sight of the goal:

  • Breathe – Take it back to 3 deep breaths in & out. Be sure to count “1 Mississippi, 2 Mississippi, 3 Mississippi” while holding breath & when blowing out push any energies that don’t belong to you, out. It may seem like a silly thing to do, but I promise this simple technique gets me through daily struggles as a mommy!
  • Listen – I’m sure you’ve heard it time and time, do not listen to respond. Listen to understand. This rule is no different when it comes to our children. In fact, it’s most important when it comes to our children.
  • Stay Present – Energy not only transfers, but it happens almost instantly as it relates to our child(ren). Keep this in mind when addressing their needs because it’s felt when you’re not genuinely interested in what it is.

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Give Yourself Credit

Imani M. Watson

Mommy thoughts: “Allowing yourself time to rest & reset as a mother, should never be optional.”

Before diving into our break for this month, we’d like to take a moment to thank our very first guest blogger Shakiela Hurt, who is the author of the entry “Give Yourself Credit.” She is a Detroit based mommy of 3 who also runs a motherhood & lifestyle blog! More about her can be found on Thekietolife.net! It has been an honor to partner with this mommy & we are so thankful for the time she has dedicated to Mommy’sBreak Inc.

The Break: There’s no secret that as a mommy and especially a mommy of mutiples being “burnt out” happens more times than we’d like to admit. Rather you’re married, single, “entangled,” and/or you have that village that they said it takes;  you still have your days. On those days that I feel like no matter how much I accomplish I haven’t done enough, I learned a secret for y’all. Sometimes you’ll feel like no matter how much rest you got you’re still not rested, and the to do list grows as you scratch things off. When this happens, self love days are your friend. I like to use the phrase, “give credit where it’s due”. Because sis, not to toot my own horn, but I am the Suga. Honey. Iced. Tea! We all are & it’s important that as mothers we give ourselves some credit. I’ve observed that I only feel these “burned out” feelings when I’m not giving myself any credit. I had to teach myself that self love really is the best love. Realizing that it’s okay to have days that you do nothing; nothing days are productive too. It’s okay to eat some of their fruit snacks, afterall you did purchase them! 

As a single mom I don’t have too many days that I feel burned out, but I do have crisis moments. While I suffer from Chronic Depression and Anxiety it makes some things for me a bit more complicated. During these moments I allow myself to feel whatever it is that I’m feeling without guilt. It’s healthy to allow your emotions to flow even if they’re not pleasant or popular. There have been times in those moments that I have thoughts of giving up on everything. And when these moments are over I am glad that I didn’t. I’ve learned not to make permanent decisions based on temporary emotions. Even if you have more than one moment a day or more “burned out” days in a week than you feel acceptable don’t forget to give yourself some credit for your good days. The days that you played nanny, nurse, teacher, coach, tutor, etc. The times that you weren’t sure what you were doing or how you were going to do what you needed to but you STILL kept going. These are going to be the most important moments to cling and hold onto.

The greatest gift I can give my children is a healthy mother and that means mentally as well as physical. Don’t feel guilty for putting yourself first. You can’t give to others without filling up your cup first. I struggled badly with even buying things for myself without getting them something too. Until one day I was looking for shoes to go with my outfit and I couldn’t find one pair, but they had a pair to match almost every outfit. It was in that moment I said this is getting out of hand. I find that we care more about some things than they do because of our own self guilt. Once I got over my personal guilt, self care and self love days got easier. On the days that you’re not able to do anything but feed everyone, make sure you all are clean, and alive you are still enough. Give yourself some credit. Nobody can give what you give them. If you feel like you have nothing to give, that means your cup is getting empty. 

M.O.M. hold it down!

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I Really Don’t Know

Imani M. Watson

Mommy thoughts: “You’re not alone. We’re all battling struggles with both life and parenting. You’re also not a superhuman so just focus on & start at step one, which is simply acknowledging that you’re struggling with something!”

The Break: Where to start? I have like 5 places I would like to but I don’t know where it makes the most sense…I always say I want to have a better relationship with time, but up until about a month ago, I’m not even sure what that statement really meant. Currently in a space where it feels like I have all the time in the world, to have no time.

I wish I had some fancy statement to explain why I haven’t blogged in two months, but it’s as simple as life being too damn heavy. The thought of sitting down and writing has seemed like such an unreachable task & I can only blame myself for the disconnect. However, life is heavy enough so I won’t. I’ll simply start here and only hope that I can retain and maintain balance in this life moving forward.

I still don’t know if the neurologist delivered the news so calmly because the news was that I cannot tolerate stress or if it was just her natural demeanor given the line of work she’s in. Either way it didn’t make it any less stressful. In fact, I can’t remember a time before this, that I cried so hard snot was able to rest on my face. The way she explained it was that there is no explanation. The seizures that occur in my sleep could be life threatening and because of the rate that they’re happening I am now considered to have “Epilepsy.” She let me know that I would need to start medication as early as tonight because with each episode I am minutes away from losing life. She explained that when my body is transitioning from one stage of being awake to sleep, something is happening too fast for my brain to handle. This in turn sends something like a sudden shock to the neurological system. She stated in “simple” terms, what makes this life threatening is that my brain is losing oxygen during the episodes. So if you could, imagine how terrifying it is to get this news followed by a 72 hour sleep study where you’ve had a total of 8 seizures!!

Now, to be beyond thankful, during my brain scans there were no tumors or cancer found, which are found on about 20% of epilepsy patients. I fall within the 80% of us that are told it’s not much of an explanation behind the ‘why.’ So with this, I need to avoid any type of stimulating or stressful situations, events, or lifestyles. Not hard at all, except what the hell is stimulating and stressing me out in my sleep? I’ve had a couple months to think about her words. Replaying over and over trying to find something to trust about them. That is until I no longer wanted to understand the words. I instead wanted to know why they felt like such a knife to my chest, then they made all the sense in the world.

From her words I was reminded of what life really feels like for me as an individual. You’re telling me some of the hardest news I’ve ever heard and doing so in the most emotionless way. In logic, I get it. But the picture it brought together for me was enough to recognize that I have a real issue with feeling like people don’t see me as a human, who has the capacity to feel hurt and struggle as any other. What’s backwards about it is the feeling only emphasized after becoming a mother and being given another life to be responsible for. This moment made me reflect to ask myself, “why?” Why is it that I could go through the worst shit and the only thing that’d amaze people would be me freaking out about it.

In conclusion to my reflection I was able to address myself versus the people who may choose to look beyond the struggles I face. People will only treat you how you treat you. Up until this point I have believed that I’m taking care of, catering to, and being gentle with myself, but the reality is, I’m not. I don’t allow myself the proper amount of grace and ease that I need to fully walk and live in my purpose. From what I know, it’s bigger than what I can see and it’ll take a level of dedication that I’ve never seen. And I don’t mean dedication in its usual form, I mean dedication to really just stop, listen, and follow. We take dedication and make it into an action but in this case I think it’s calling for the exact opposite. After all of this, I took a 30 day break from social media and work in general. What was learned is that there shouldn’t have been a time stamp. I need to take as long as I need because what’s for me will always be for me and that stands true for ALL OF US! There shouldn’t be an urgency to get to the things that are set for us because it creates unnecessary stress, even if we’re managing it well. Remember, the goal should never be to properly “manage” the stress, we are working to eliminate it as a whole!

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4am Thoughts: It’s Not Really A Job

Imani M. Watson

Mommy thoughts: “How often we go behind our own black curtain definitely matters. After all, you can’t improve the things you aren’t measuring.”

The break: Was laying here trying to force myself to go back to sleep, but couldn’t so I decided to write. Most of the thoughts shared on this blog come from a place that once or currently serve as a struggle in either me or those around me, and our struggles in the parenting journey. It’s not always easy to share thoughts that come from a place of struggle, but I’ve found that sharing mine give me a way to easily acknowledge them. I also notice the more honest I am in acknowledging the struggles, the easier they become to address.

So, I ended up woke at this time of night/morning because Aiden needed to go potty. In putting him back in bed, I thought about how warm my heart felt to be a part of the entire moment. Something as simple as him dragging me out of bed, to me waiting in the hallway half asleep (because God forbid standing in the bathroom and “invading his privacy”), all the way to this exact moment of me putting him back in bed and exchanging “I love yous.” If I had any word to explain how I felt in these moments it’d be, soft. Moments like these are always my favorite because they make me feel so pure in all that I am living for when it comes to being a mother. 

In thinking about all of this, it took me to a moment yesterday when his dad referenced me being too aggressive in my interactions with A. I compared the two moments in my head and asked myself what made them different. Why am I so “tough” at times, but in moments like this I’m as gentle as can be. What makes me enjoy taking him to the bathroom in the middle of the night so much but when having to get his seat belt on I somehow end up wanting to snatch his head instead. Maybe it’s because I’m crankier in the evening or maybe yesterday just wasn’t my day, or maybe neither of them are the reasons why. Because in laying here with my own thoughts, it seems like it’s something a little simpler than we can see at times as adults, in general. And it’s as simple as this, parenting should be fun. Parenting is not an actual job. 

This may have been referenced in a previous blog, but it feels so evident in this moment. In past moments, it has been easy to live by the statement of “parenting is a full-time job,” but I don’t believe it was ever supposed to be taken literal. When we take the fun out of anything, we ruin it. It’s something we struggle with the older we get, but it’s such an important part to life. If I’m honest, the times that I am the angriest or toughest on Aiden are those moments that I am treating parenting like I’m being paid by the hour. As stated, my favorite moments are when I can be as gentle as possible with him, because those are also moments where I feel the most connected to him. Imagine how easy it becomes to guide your children if you’re deeply connected in all moments. If you’re enjoying all moments, even the tough ones because we already know they’re guaranteed. Think about how much brighter it’d make the journey of parenting, by simply making it fun. Use this time to stop and think about the moments and the reasons that you are the hardest on your own child(ren). Can you relate to it being when you’re treating it like a job? Whether you answered yes or no to the question, I wanted to share some ways in which you could ensure you’re keeping parenting fun, for not just you, but your child(ren) too! Choose to do one or all, just make a choice to do something! Let’s change the narrative because we all know that 85% of us are unhappy in and literally HATE our “jobs.” Why categorize what should be the happiest space of our lives in the same? I included seven ways to make parentings more FUN below: 

Start the morning/wake them up dancing & singing their favorite song (Ours is currently The Chicken Wing Song)

Choose something to cook/bake from scratch (Our go to is Saturday morning waffles or pizza any night)

Movie night & snacks (I usually end up sleep, but remember, it’s the attempt that counts!)

Game night (Our interests change weekly, but so far, we’ve held a long-term interest in puzzles)

Make dinner a game of “Restaurant.” Create fake $$ for child(ren) to pay, create a menu, & serve as the waitress! (Works better when you have multiple children to play with)

DIY art project (We love to paint)

Join their world for a day! (Do this with a judgement/boss free mind. For a full day bring yourself to your child’s world by doing things like playing with them and their toys, ask about their happiness, watch their favorite YouTube videos, find out what their goals are, do something they want to do, etc. Just release all your responsibility as a parent on this day, regardless of your child’s age, YOU WILL BE AMAZED)

No matter if you decide to do just one, two, or even if you find ways to make fun outside of this list…just remember when doing any of them, the why behind it. Make it fun, allow it to be fun, and create new habits out of them! The goal is to strengthen ourselves as parents and we can’t forget that in the simple moments! 

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Just Stop.

Imani M. Watson

Mommy thoughts: “As difficult as it may get, you actually have to keep going. Don’t let all of your work up until this point, go to waste.”

The Break: This is the 1st time in a while that I’ve sat and wrote a blog out on paper before publishing. For a while now, I’ve been in the habit of typing within the same 24 hours of sharing…I wanted to write on paper because 1. Today called for a separation from electronics and 2. When I write physically, I feel more connected to my words.

Anyhow, I knew it was time for me to slow down when I pulled up home and realized I had not strapped my kid in his seat during our 30 minute drive from school. I also realized that I had spent most of all the drive lost in my thoughts surrounding business, day job planning, to do lists, and so on. And while this wasn’t my 1st, nor will it be my last parenting extreme, it reminded me of that message I can’t seem to connect with. Or maybe it’s that I spend so much time wanting others to get it, that I keep missing it in my own reality. Whatever it be, it continues to be a struggle. Without taking breaks and allowing ourselves the space to stop all movement, we set ourselves up for experiences like mine! Now, does it make me a bad mother? Absolutely not. What would make me a bad mother is allowing these things to continue by ignoring that it’s time for a break.

What myself and I’m sure so many other mothers have to understand is that being a hard worker does not align with not resting and allowing time to stay grounded. We all allow our thoughts to convince us that we’re not doing enough and these thoughts usually lead to us into overdrive to “work harder.” As with the time I left the egg on the stove, or slept through his pick up time, and now this, the message remains that I am not focused enough, because I’m lacking in the areas of rest and recover. Being a mother in itself is hard, so let’s commit to not make it any harder by avoiding the things that are required to succeed. If no-one knows, we should understand that life itself cannot be “built,” no matter how hard you work at it. Life in all it’s forms can only come from another living body, so why not ensure that we are nourished in all aspects to be able to remain that source. At the point that I realized that a break was what I needed I planned a 10 day break from social media and committed to existing only in present moments. I told myself that no matter what was to come “next,” or what I had planned, whatever was meant to be, would be. It took for me to convince myself for the millionth time, that if I am no good mentally, physically, spiritually, emotionally, and socially, then I can be of service/good to no-one!

We have to remember and hold on to the idea that strength does not always come from fighting, working, and moving. We get our greatest strength in silence and stillness, but I can obviously understand how we get away from this concept in today’s world. For today and maybe even the rest of this week, I want you to just stop. Even if every thing in your mind is telling you not to. Take time to stop the norm and commit to only doing things that will nourish you for a day or two! You will notice better moods, more patience for your child(ren), and the ability to see things much clearer. I know we may all have different reasons for why our brains are on overdrive so take time to figure out what your reason may be! Some of the things that helped me during my 10 day “stop” period included:

Wrote a journal each day to measure my own emotions.

Had dinner with family.

Scheduled a full spa day.

Finished an old & Started a new book.

Got dressed up & went to the bar.

No social media.

Spent time with my brothers.

Watched a movie w/ my kid.

Went Hiking

Because it’s usually those smaller tasks that we take for granted that so easily throw our focus. Please share your tips or experiences with taking time to just stop in the comments or find me on social media to share your thoughts! 

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It’s Challenging

Imani M. Watson

Mommy thoughts: “Having a child makes it hard to let my emotions unfold naturally. Always worried about what I’m teaching my child when the reality is, allowing my emotions to operate naturally won’t do anything, but teach him how to have the best control of his.”

The Break: My point in sharing my struggles in parenthood is never to completely change anyone’s parenting style or even convince anyone that I have it all figured out. I realized over the last month that the only thing separating me from a parent who society would call a “bad” one, is my desire to do the job better than I did yesterday. This and knowing that I want to create a different narrative than what I’ve seen and known parenting to look like over my life span. We all make the same mistakes, we all struggle with it, we all experience the moments that should be smooth, but parenting makes 10x more complicated, and the list could go on. None of us have it “figured out” and that’s why Mommy’s Break remains and will always remain relevant. To remind mommies that you got this, you’re doing your best, and as long as you dedicate yourself to learning within the job, there is no failing. We only fail when we convince ourselves that we have all the answers to a job no amount of practice could’ve prepare you for.

I’ll always believe that motherhood is the one of the most important jobs. We all know there’s no “how to” manual or anything close, despite how easy most of us make it look. Even in believing this, there are certain concepts that it seems impossible to do the job without. One of those being intention. If I had to name the top 3 most important tools for parenting, intention would be at the top of it! In previous blogs I have spoken to intention in parenting and yet, like many, it remains an ongoing lesson for myself. Like spoken to in March’s blog, it’s the ongoing lessons that seem to be the biggest challenges within parenting. The areas where we can all use constant reminders, so I wanted to use this month to provide just that. March was a time of heavy reflection as it practically forced me to embrace the words transformation and acceptance. I took time to reflect about halfway through the month because it felt as if I was losing control of just about everything around me. I also used the time to acknowledge how chaotic things had gotten for our household since the start of 2021. Despite the many things to be grateful for, 2021 also came with new sets of challenges. At least this was my thought during initial reflection.

The reality is, these new sets of challenges aren’t as new as they appear to be.

So what made them feel new? The way they have directly effected Aiden this time around. As they get older, these repeated lessons do come with certain changes, making them even more important to master at each level. The irony lies in the fact that these lessons are usually the ones that have the most potential to become challenge. For this reason I’ve dedicated myself to stopping through EVERY uncomfortable parenting moment and asking myself what my role was and if I was intentional in it. It’s so easy to look outside of our parenting flaws to find blame or reason in someone or something else. When sorting through my own for the past three months, I surely wanted to name the lack of connection from my son as the biggest challenge. When the reality is, our lack of connection is no where near the problem. More so an end result of the actual problem, which is my own lack of intention. And I wouldn’t pretend nor act like going behind your own black curtain is fun or easy. However, I will say its very necessary when you have someone who’s heavily effected by the things behind that curtain, watching your every move.

I want to challenge mommies/parents to join me the next 30 days in practicing intent. Once you finish reading and sharing this post. Write down your top 3-5 intentions/goals as it relates directly to parenting. After writing, store somewhere easily assessable, repeat OUT LOUD to yourself, daily. I would love to hear the changes that naturally come with this practice, during or at the end of your 30 days.

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Repeated Lessons

Imani M. Watson

Mommy thoughts: “While I feel I have a good grip on my emotional regulation & personal coping skills, I never fail to be reminded by dark spaces, why it’s so important to simply be a good person.”

The Break: Life has been throwing wrenches left & right. I mean kicking my ass to the point of not being able to sit down and simply write a blog for the month of February. I will add that for every tragedy, I’ve been provided 3+ things to be beyond grateful for. So for this I’ll continue to be thankful for even the hardest moments. However it doesn’t take away from them being hard. Initially I started to do what we’re trained to do, ask myself why this would be happening to me. Of all people in the world, why the person who spends her alone time trying to figure out how to be better?! 

And then I asked myself, why not me?

Why not take on and understand each lesson that’s being provided. Even if my chip falls on the ground, instead of getting upset, I’m using it as a moment to return to the present moment, ask myself was there something off in my focus, etc. A technique I’ve shared before, but speaking to it again makes obvious that I haven’t mastered. I’ve constantly reminded myself over the last month or so that nothing is happening TO ME. & while a hard reality to accept, it’s just that. I am being afforded the opportunity to always be an example of all the best described ways. Resilient, strong, and dedicated to creating a better narrative for my child.

I don’t know a category of species stronger than a mommy of any kind. I would say between period hormones & life itself, I’m in a pretty unstable space. I can see and understand how another seizure, family drama, losing a brother to gun violence, still being a social worker, and motherly duties would lead anyone to complete insanity in a 3 month time span. What I can’t see, is if my own reactions or people being immune to my life’s events is creating this space of aloneness for me. I decided to write this month’s blog tonight while feeling down because more than anything I want mommies to know that you’re never alone. I felt by speaking from a more vulnerable space, I’m able to fully express just how I relate. I’ll write this every month if I have to because I just want it known and understood that even when it feels like you’re alone, I promise you’re not.

Overall, I may not can say that things are going terribly wrong for me. What I can say is that tonight I want to cry and soak in the sadness. I don’t want to wear the mommy cape and I won’t. I won’t because there’s strength in knowing when to allow emotions aside from happiness have their moments. Problem arrives when we get stuck in these moments. So my word to you today is whatever space you’re in recognize it, allow it, understand it, & release. It may take 2 minutes or it may take the remainder or March. However long, don’t allow yourself to get stuck. We have little people watching & trust that they are regardless of age or words spoken. I could’ve used tonight to give up and let the emotions win, but instead I’m choosing to make it a moment of strength and lesson in hopes of helping the next mommy! What will you do to help your hardest moments become lesson?

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Pride or Parenting?

Imani M. Watson

There are many things involved with parenting that we don’t take the time to think about on a regular basis because it comes so natural. There are also parenting situations that appear to be so normal that most of us don’t give much thought or question to the way we were taught. Imagine telling someone that they’re wrong or that they cannot do something, all with the reasoning, “because I said so” or better yet, not being able to admit to someone proving you wrong, that you’re in fact, the one in the wrong. Probably not that hard to imagine given that just about every parent in America exercises the unwritten rule that children can’t be right, shouldn’t debate with adults, and aren’t deserving of apologies when they prove adults wrong. As crazy as it’d be not to give another human an explanation when telling them they’re wrong or apologizing when warranted, we suddenly lose that respect when it comes to our children, why?

In situations outside of my child, I have never been the one to shy away from being wrong and/or apologizing when it’s needed. It was not initially clear to me when the small habit of teaching him, “I’m right because I’m the adult,” started to develop. Now, of course this isn’t word for word what I teach him, but when thinking about it, this is how insane it comes out when taking away from children solely based on age/status. We were going back and forth and w/o any solid reason other than thinking I knew better, I told Aiden he was wrong about how something worked. He politely proved to me I was wrong and even provided the reasons to support me being wrong. This stopped me in my tracks mainly because it’s not everyday that a 3 year old knows how to prove someone wrong with facts. The other reason being it took me back to my times as a child, being annoyed with adults thinking they knew everything.

It seems that when we become parents, we lose our ability to admit when we are wrong and/or apologize to our children. As noted before, this is something I have experienced as a child myself, watching friends & family have children growing up, all the way into becoming a parent. With this being a norm around me, it never stopped me from questioning the reason behind it. In addition to questioning, it has also served as a long standing parenting pet peeve of mine. That is, up until I found myself being that same parent. When having my experience it caused me to step back and question the messages I want Aiden to receive from me and my parenting styles. It made me think about why I was so uncomfortable apologizing. In the midst of these thoughts and trying to wrap my head around how to handle the situation next time, one word kept ringing, and it was ‘pride.’ Something that can easily sneak up in parenting, but doesn’t always mix the best. As I explored deeper into thoughts, pride was the exact block between me being able to comfortably say, “I apologize for saying you were wrong Aiden, because it was me in the wrong.”

I understand, that not all parents believe it to be as big of a deal, but I will be the first to say that it is. I’ll also be the first to say that trying to teach a 3 year old that his thoughts are valid will probably serve me better than trying to get a 13 year old Black boy in America to believe it later down the line. We often times save tasks and teachings for our children, when the reality is it all starts the day we bring them into this world. I want to challenge parents over the next month to look at some areas where pride and parenting mix for you! In addition to looking at the areas, find ways in which you can exercise less pride and more parenting. As we know admitting you’re wrong is only one of the many ways we see pride take over parents.

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Now We’re Doing Tantrums

Imani M. Watson

I really thought me and Desmond had gotten so lucky that we would be able to say, we couldn’t relate to our kid dropping to the ground while kicking his feet and screaming. Especially given that Aiden is able to have and carry full conversations about when he’s upset and why. It wasn’t until last night that I noticed when he dropped to the floor, he did so in steps allowing me to see that he is looking for a reaction. When I asked … or told him to get up and get out of my kitchen, he stood up and stated, “but mommy, I’m mad.”

Over the last month or so, since the tantrums have started, what he’s searching for, is exactly what he’s gotten from both me and Desmond. Usually him collapsing on the ground results in his dad yelling and/or me threatening the whooping that’s never happened. Realizing that a reaction is exactly what my child has been looking for, it led me into thinking why a kid as smart as him would want to get such a high emotional reaction from his parents. It then led me to think about the fact that he ONLY does it with us two. Over time these reactions become more and more intense, mainly due to shock. I think I may have even asked at one point why he would wait until he’s almost four to start this.

While not capable of giving me a solid answer, his “mommy I’m mad,” statement was enough to help me at least try to figure it out. I had to stop and think about the fact that Aiden’s parents have many new sources that have taken our attention in the last few months. I just shared with you all last month that I was practically forced to spend a day giving my full attention to him. His dad has launched merchandise under his brand, been working on a new project, and while unintentional, that has taken away from the attention Aiden is used to. With this, I have also been working on the release of a book, planning a party, dealing with life, and working on various projects outside of being a mother. So when asking myself why, I had to dig into the role I am also playing. I am a huge believer in the idea of looking deeply into the things that frustrate you until you’re able to see your reflection. However, it is not always easy to apply this when parenting! Do I believe that Aiden saw another child engage in this behavior and thought he’d give it a shot? Absolutely. Do I believe he’s fully capable of expressing himself without the fall out? Absolutely. But what I don’t believe is that he can say, “hey mom and dad y’all attention to me has been off and I would like more of it.”

As a parent, I think it is beyond important to be able to look at your self and own behaviors, when trying to understand your children. I have talked about this in previous blogs, yet and still I am also finding myself repeatedly receiving this lesson. I thought it would be useful to share with other mommies and parents as a reminder. Use this month to come to an understanding with your child about a recent behavior that may be frustrating you! No matter the age or issue, who may be in the “wrong” or “right,” just think deeper than what you see at face value. I’d love to hear how this worked for you and your child(ren)!

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Gratitude, Do You Know What It Means?

Imani M. Watson

My very favorite time of the month is when my power is randomly turned off & we have no Wifi to operate the smart devices in our home, including the TV, said no one ever. At least, that’s what you’d think living in such a tech loving society.

Last month, we found ourselves waking up to this being a reality for us. No power and no way to operate our phones, that are practically useless without the Wifi. For the first few hours it was manageable with the thought that things would be turned on shortly. That is until shortly turned into days for us having entertainment outside of our home. At one point, Aiden’s dad asked, “how will we entertain a 3 year old all day with no wifi,” and while this is comical, it also reflects where we are as parents in present times. As time went on and daylight found it’s way to replace candles, I decided to do the things on my todo list that required no strong internet connection. By mid afternoon, I was able to think clearly enough to use my hotspot to accomplish things on my computer.

As the day went on, I found myself in a space of being extremely thankful for the level of focus I had to accomplish what I could. I also found myself thinking about how critical it is to be thankful for the things that we do not initially see as a gift to us. I initially felt irritated thinking that I would be losing a day, in what I felt to be one of my most productive days for me. I allowed my thoughts of being involuntarily disconnected from the world consume me into believing that there would be no way for me to attack the 10 things I needed to accomplish. In reality, this kept me off of my phone for a majority of the day and able to focus on bonding with my child. It also allowed me to be more productive because I was afforded less time on social media. By the end of the night, I was developing a plan to have a day once a month for limited access to the internet, social media, and all other things that cause major distractions to reality.

What’s the very last thing you expressed gratitude for? In my experience last month, I found many things to be thankful for. A day where I’m not allowed to focus on anything outside of my home. I was able to be disconnected from distractions. I was productive and so forth. We so often forget to be thankful for situations that come off as irrational, because gratitude is not something that we are taught to value on an unconditional level. Sometimes, it may even take me a while to remember to say, “thanks.” Especially when I can’t understand the “why” behind certain things.

Use this month and every other, to focus on your level of gratitude. This is the PERFECT time to start being and maintaining gratitude for ALL things. Find ways to be thankful for all things, even if they make you uncomfortable or bring other forms of discomfort. Speaking from experience, gratitude has continued to open up new paths for me. In addition to showing limitless gratitude, I want to challenge you this month to choose a day to disconnect. No social media, internet, outside sources, or anything of that nature. I will encourage you to keep the power, but disconnect from all other source and spend the day with your kid, no matter the age!

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